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2012-11-26 01:01:18 UTC
I have had creepy guys text me constantly and I had no attraction to them. i didn't handle it well, though... I'll admit I was a ***** because I completely ignored the texts. But a guy I met once called me his 'n****').
I had a guy start following me on twitter and commenting on all of these random facebook messages and we had so much in common. Like literally so much. One day i casually mentioned I wanted to make a run to go to -insert fast food place here- on my twitter, and he was like, "hey! let's go!" so he picked me up and we went. It was super chill and relaxed and I thought things went well. But I guess not. I either said or did something wrong because I never hear from him anymore.
And another guy i've had my eye on shows no interest. But at the same time I've had guys bluntly tell me "I wanna sneak someone into my dorm", hinting that I should. I want a guy who is patient enough and cares and it's just so frustrating that even when I think I've met a cool guy it never works out. And some guys probably think I'm a prude or a turn-off because I have no experience, but I am so not a prude. I'm just a little shy but I'm getting better and better at starting conversations with people all of the time. But not having any experience isn't because I've chosen not to. It's because I haven't had the experience. It's disheartening. I feel hopeless. I dress well considering everyone in college dresses sloppy and some girls have called me bitchy things saying I'm "trying too hard". But since I don't have a boyfriend, dressing decently and not in yoga pants and hoodies all day long is my thing. I dont know but I get so much anxiety thinking about what everyone thinks, too. I just wish something would work out right in my life. :/