Well,I met Joel-Peter online In February of this year and I realized we couldn't be just friends.We were messaging each other,going on cam as many times as we could,chatting when we both were online and we had some pretty random,crazy but sometimes witty conversations I just couldn't stop thinking about.We trusted each other even if we had met only some months ago and we let each other in our secrets,fears and worries.We were always honest and patient with each other since both of us have flaws.Time passed by,and we finally realized we were actually dating each other.So he asked me to be his girlfriend and of course I didn't say no since I had never felt this way for a boy.I don't know if you believe in long distance relationships but I do,or at least did.I felt amazing,happier than ever,like I had find the only person who can make feel that awesome.I found a reason to wake up in the morning and think about all day.The one whom I could trust and depend on when in need and I'd do the same for him.The one I could see me be with in the future and made plans about(He's coming to meet me in July 2012).I felt strong because of him even if my whole world was falling apart because I knew that this boy who lives overseas loves me for what I am,exactly the way I am.I'd always find the courage to keep going and even if he was rude to me sometimes,I knew it wasn't him saying those nasty things because he's really bad when depressed and he would later apologize.I didn't really care because I love him and I wouldn't change anything about him and he's not perfect.Neither am I.We've been through a lot of things all this time(we've been together since July 19th) but we showed how much we trust and love each other and we'd always share our concerns but we're still here,together.Yesterday though was one of the worst days of my life.He had been complaining about how difficult long distance relationships are and how hard it is to think only about me and no one else.Every time he'd sound that pessimistic,I'd find a way to calm him down.Mostly,it would be his AD HD so I didn't worry since he'd be okay the next day.Well yesterday he was in a ''pissy mood''as he called it and treated me like **** and I didn't even know what was worrying him.When I pushed him,he finally explained and told me he missed the physical contact.I know how he feels and I understand his needs,he's 18,I'm 15 and I haven't had a serious relationship so that I can miss being kissed or hugged when he does feel this way.To cut a long story short he asked me to allow him to date other girls while in LDR with me.And that's when I felt like I lost a piece of me.I don't know if it sounds okay to you,but it hurt me.I already felt bad about not being able to be there for him whenever he needed me,to be by his side,embrace him and express my love for him.And every time I just blamed myself for the stupid distance,I felt like killing myself and told him he was free to literally ''dump me'' if he felt trapped in our LDR.But now this was too hard for me to take.I can' imagine him hugging and kissing someone else other than me.I'm not possessive,really but I think it's not right cheating on your girlfriend since you're not single.I told him exactly how I feel about that(I had made it clear I wouldn't want to let him date other girls so I thought he'd never mention it again) and his answer was we're neither married nor engaged.His attitude towards this topic hurt me as well.I'm just afraid of losing him.What if he dates a girl and he likes her?He will probably break up with me and I'll lose my world.He said I shouldn't mind it since I mean the world to him and I'm the one he wants to be with in the future.But still,I know I'll get hurt when I know he was with someone else because he can't be with me.Can you please give me ANY advice on this?I'll be grateful if you do.