sweetlittlelen
2011-06-16 07:44:04 UTC
Part of his job is to check the integrity of their employees and he found out so many anomalies that some managers are doing just to get money from the company. So he terminated some people including the managers and other personnels. January this yr he started receiving death threats telling him that he has to resign otherwise he will no longer see the light or something like that.
One day I just got a text from him telling me that his job is taking so much of his time and that his
health is not okay and he is receiving death threat so it is best for me that we should not go on. I got so hurt because I really love him so much. I want to be with him during this time that he needs someone to be there for him. I told him that whatever the situation is we have to face this together, that I will never leave him no matter what will happen. I txted him that I couldnt eat and its hard to swallow food. I got a text from him saying "please eat, let's forget what I said I'm sorry. So I finally felt relieved. But then after a few days he ignores my text so I was worried what was happening to him. I wanted to check him if he is alright because I am worried about his health. But I know I have to give him space and time for himself so I tried not to text him but after a few days I got a message from him asking me out and told me he miss me. So I agreed to see him.
When we were together last tuesday we talked abt his problems and who he thinks are the ppl behind the threats. He told me that he dont want them to get me and harass me. That I should be careful all the time. I noticed that he lost weights and he really looks stress. I hugged him and told him that everything will be ok soon. He was very sweet to me that night and I really feel that he truly loves me. On the ff day, in the morning he texted me asking how i was. but after a few minutes he texted me again saying "this is crazy! i guess for your safety we stop seeing each other for the time being." "Im sorry im stress again" "i dont want anything to happen to you" "i love you very very much" "dont call me i'll be the one to call you ok".
when i got his messages I asked him what's wrong and if someone is threating him again and he said yes and that they want him to resign. i asked him to have a vacation leave but he said he has a lot of work to be done. so i said i am just here for him and that was the last time i heard from him.
I know that he is just protecting me but I am hurting because I feel like he is pushing me away. I want to help him and tell him that I want to be there for him and never leave him. I still remember when he asked me not to stop loving him. I really love him that so much.
I never got any texts from him from then. He is ignoring my texts now. It hurts me everytime i send him messages I got no reply from him. I am so worried that maybe he is sick or doesnt feel well because of his high blood, maybe he is super busy with works or maybe he is really ignoring me.
I also think that maybe he thinks that I am just after his money because he earns more than anybody does but I told him that I am not after his money or whatever material things that he can give. I told him that I love him not because of what he is and what he has but I love him because of who he is and his great character. He knows that I am a single mom and I dont earn much but despite of all the hardship in life I never come to him to ask for money and I will never ever do that. I asked him before if that is what he thinks of me but he said he never think that way. He keeps on telling me before that he loves me and that he will never leave me. He also told me that he is always happy with me that's why he loves me for that. He even asked me not to stop loving him. I know he's a good man and he doesnt want to hurt me. I am sure that he's not seeing any lady except me.
Last sunday morning I texted him and asked him if he has work and that I was thinking of taking him out. I want to give him massage so he feel relax. I want to be with him and tell him how he means to me. But he never replied. I want to think that maybe he was just busy.
It's been a week since I got his last texts and I miss him really so bad.
Maybe the problem is the death threat and he just doesnt want those people to get me and harrass me. But I told him that I am here for him but I just really fee