Epitaph
2009-12-23 08:59:52 UTC
but i want to know wat you guys think or wat i shuold do.
(yes i know its kinda long but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE read it)
so everything was going fine with me and my bf at first,
he wud always txt me first,
and say he wanted to see me,
would be like 'guess who i love' and i wud say who, he would say me.
one time we were txting for 7 hrs till we fell asleep.
then he would went to meet after school everyday..so we did
he would say he wanted to hold hands, and sum times we did.
and we woud sneak out of or houses just to see each other
and he was the first guy i had kissed,
and sum thing that i thought was really sweet was he sed after we had kissed he txted me that that was awsome,
and i sed i guess but then i sed jk it was,
and he was like ít was our first kiss' :)
and he was the first guy i had made out with too.
he would always look for me at school and after school
and it seemed like he really did like me..
but then i got my fone taken away and havent talked in a while (like a month)
we only talk at school now.
i called him once on my house fone just so he would have that number, but i havent called him back and he hasnt called me, and its been a long time since i called. but im ok with it though since i dont really like talking on the fone.
and his friends know we are going out and so do mine. and im pretty sure the whole school knows cuz i think they have seen us hold hands and kiss, and when i sed that it was weird that people would stare at us when we were kissing he sed he didnt care if they stared.
so then one day i went to me friend house and txted him on her fone, and i was all excited cuz i would get to talk to him finaly but he didnt answer till the next day, he asked who this was and thats when i thought we should say its someone eles, jus to mess with him. so we did and he was like
'how do i konw u'
us, 'we were hangin with som friends'
'cool so how u get this number'
us, 'i got it from a friend cuz i was shy to talk to u and i like you'
us 'do you have a gf?'
'not really'....
he sed not really? why wud he say that?
than he sed that there was this one girl that really liked him but he didnt really like her, wat? that is BS then why tha hell did he want to hold my hand and all that ****?
we asked why he didnt like her, he sed he didnt really know her. and that was wen i realized that we didnt really talk about our lives to each other.
then he asked this imaginary girl if he would see her at school the next day. i was like oh my god.. he would cheat on me.
i saw him at school the next day but didnt talk to him cuz he was with his friends so i walked past him and didnt really look at him, rite wen i walked past some one sed "oh ****' im not sure if it was one of his friends but it sounded like he sed it.
but i dont want to break up cuz i DO want to get to know him better, but now im not so sure that he wants to get to know me better. and we have only been together for 2 months.
now that we are on winter break i think this whole situation is going to get worse since we wont talk all break.
(oh and when we were friends we would talk all the time and we would flirt and stuff, but i didnt really ever picture us going out. i was just trying to be his friend. he liked me before i liked him and then he asked me out.)
why would he do this? cuz this i really messed up. what should i do?