2012-12-23 13:39:51 UTC
Okay, first let me explain myself I am a lesbian I have a crush on my best friend Em. I told her how I felt a couple of years ago but she doesn't feel the same way because she is pretty confused about herself and she claims she is a-sexual. Anyways I am trying my best to move on keeping myself busy and hobbies, however there are times I get confused about her actions and what she says to me so I just need some opinions about her.
I made a account on a dating website on okcupid.com and match.com I wanted to share this with my friends and when I told Em about me meeting women online she just seemed like she was bothered about me talking to them because she never replied to my text messages than my other friend Mandy. I asked her “Does it bother you that I am talking to women online?” Her reply “no I am not bothered by it I am just concerned about you because I don’t trust online dating.” She cares about me I know that for sure any friend will be to their friend as well. I just didn’t care for her just ignoring my messages when I am trying my best to share my life with her so I can move on.
The first women I met were Sabrina We hit it off at first we shared our interest and we soon found out we liked the same things. We exchanged phone numbers and pictures. We talked to each other mostly every day I started to like her. However, she never really called me or added me on her Facebook page. Basically she was just too mysterious and I didn’t trust her so I moved on.
Before I broke it off with Sabrina
I came over to visit my friends I told them about Sabrina. I showed her picture to Mandy she said “wow she’s beautiful I hope it works out” and then I gave the phone to Em. She looked at Sabrina’s picture and handed the phone back to me. No expression what’s so ever?
Months later…
The other women Mary I met seemed fun she of course had the same interest as me. We chatted online and by text but never really called each other. Mary was a pushy character though we just met online and exchanged phone numbers and she already wanted to go out for coffee with me. I told her my schedule is pretty full that week she replied, “you can always make time for coffee, I am trying to push you to get out.” At that point I didn’t trust her because I just wasn’t sure what I was getting into. So I broke that off too.
I texted Em about Mary and how she was a pushy person to me to go out with her Em replied, “So what are you going to do?” I said “nothing really I just wanted to be friends with her nothing more.” And then 30 seconds later Em called me. We talked for like an hour.
That same week I met up with Em and our friends at a restaurant. I bought up the topic about Mary to Mandy. I noticed from across from me Em was talking to our friend Amy. Em started to become silent and looked at me during my conversation about Mary. Em then turned to Amy and started a new conversation with her. And then I started to notice that Amy and Em stop talking. Em was just sitting there looking away from me while ever one else was listening to my story about Mary.
I really don’t know if these were signs of jealousy or she just wasn’t interested in my love life.
What do you think?