2011-08-13 15:14:08 UTC
See about 6-8 months ago this girl liked me from my now old school (I transferred to a different High School).. Anyways I recently made a Facebook because I was lonely during the summer (I hate Facebook to be honest.) So I added her a couple days ago and we started talking... So I discovered a lot about her, and that I had misjudged her, I thought she would be just like any other girl, but we have similar taste in music, and she's REALLY trust worthy.. We essentially talked all night last night.
We have the same views on relationships, we have the same views on a lot of things. She said she'd really miss me because I was really funny and I always made her laugh.
Now I was stupid. This girl had a huge crush on me and, for **** sakes and she asked me "Why did you run away, did I scare you at all?". I told her the truth, the biggest one being I was in a LDR with a chick for about a year and a half. It was embarrassing to say... But no one here has actually liked me for my personality.
So this girl and I have essentially been opening up, and I really REALLY feel bad.. Because now I'm realizing that she's awesome. She's sexy, smart, beautiful, is artistic, etc.
I feel even worse because she even came to a fencing tournament once.. (I help coach her bestfriends little brother).. and she was super into me and was like cheering me on and ****..
Wow.. now that I seriously think of it, I was an asshole. I'm actually crying of guilt.
Story is now that I like her so much.. I had asked her if she was free this weekend and she said she had a party and she was going to stay at a friends house. But she said "But I'll make some time for you next weekend :D"
I told her I couldn't hold it in anymore; and that I was going to wait for the weekend, but I ended up telling her I liked her on Facebook. I told her I really wanted to just tell her
She said "You're a really special guy who doesn't have much; but one day you'll be happy, I promise. There are honestly thousands of girls that would kill for a guy for you. I know life hasn't been fair to you, but you'll be happy."
...Anyways, she told me she used to cut herself and only a few know. I told her I used to be like that myself. I made her promise me that she has me, and that all she needs to do is call me and I'll call a cab and I'll be there in a heartbeat to hold her for hours if I have to. But I said she can trust me (Which she does)..
I'm not sure if you guys know much about NB.. But our province is full of pricks. And I thought she was just like all the other girls...
I told her I'm unbelievably sorry for the way I treated her this year.. She kept on saying it's ok and that she's the most chill person ever... Which just makes me want her more...
Wow I realize I just ****** up alot... And I feel incredibly bad.
So is there any hope for her liking me again? (She's single, but she likes another guy).