sparklezzz17
2013-04-26 06:32:25 UTC
So I'm 14 year old (almost 15) and in my life i've only had 1 boyfriend, it was 2 years ago and we didn't even talk... Every year I crush on a guy, its always the same type of guy: a player who doesn't give a crap about me or plays with my heart... I don't know why i'm like that and it last for almost the whole school year. Then every time, i wonder how i could've liked him?! My heart gets broken every year and i can't help it,i tell him how i feel, he flirts with me and then goes out with a girl with big boobs that wears a ton of makeup! So now, i just got over this one guy and we're friends.
Not a long time ago, a school from another country came to ours for this project we do every year. There was this cute guy but we didn't talk during his stay here. After they left, i added him on Facebook and we talked. I started crushing on him but he had a girlfriend so i knew i should just give up. We started talking again this week and we talked for a looong time. We asked each other personal"ish questions (nothing too creepy :P ). He and his girlfriend broke up and he seems to be really upset, he told me he wants to have a serious relationship. He flirts with me and stuff and i am REALLY crushing on him now. He says i'm his type and he can't wait to see me next year.
Since, he's depressed after the break-up i feel like i'm just the rebound, but i can't control my feelings... I'm gonna fall for him and he's gonna be like the other guys i've liked: He's gonna find himself a girlfriend, forget about me and my heart will be broken... He seems to like me, no guy has ever been like that with me but i'm scared and i don't know what to do. A year is a long time and i bet he's just gonna forget about me, but i won't. I'm a really fragile person. Plus, he lives in another country so we can't see each other in person :(
What should I do? Try to forget about him or continue talking to him? Please help, this is really hard for me :'(